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Day 7701
I'm dead tired of drunks.
I hate living with them- they don't remember what they've said and you never know when something is going to set them off. It's a lot like living with an overgrown 3 year old.
The wasband taught me that being kind and unjealous in a relationship is an invitation to a man to leave. 80s is teaching me that I do not want to put up with anyone who drinks or does any kind of drug that impairs them. Which is a little hypocritical of me since I smoke and drink coffee. I don't want to give up my coffee but this makes me more determined to get rid of the smoking.
Anyway- I can't get rid of my mom- and I don't see any way of getting her to stop drinking- but I don't have to have anyone else in my life that doesn't stop at a drink or two.
I really don't want to be alone but I'm tired of people who want to dump more stress into a life that I am desperately trying to de-stress. I really intensely dislike conflict and I get more than enough with things like the bus driver I have to deal with this morning and Emily's oppositional problems.
Just as an aside, I really want to order my books! This is possibly a side effect of the aforementioned stress. I was watching a peacock edition of Pride and Prejudice but it will have already sold... plus I'm really thinking I would prefer the leather. I'm also wanting to run down a facsimile edition of the William Morris Chaucer. I've seen some scans of pages and it's absolutely beautiful! I wish I had discovered the Easton reproduction before it was sold out- maybe I can find one on Ebay from someone who doesn't know what they've got and are only trying to get out of it what they paid for it. (Even at that it won't be cheap.)
I also need to talk to my car insurance people about home insurance and find out if Mom has insurance on this house and I need to insure the contents or if I need to insure it all. I've spent quite a lot of time and money getting the house into a fairly good shape and, if we had been in the path of the tornado, I doubt that what is on it now would be enough to rebuild it as it is. Not to mention that if I have to rebuild ever, I want to make some upgrades. A fireplace to start and a utility room that I can walk into without tripping over something that I need to keep.
I notice that, even without internet, I'm still journaling at lot. I'm going to have bunches to post if we ever get it back!
I hate living with them- they don't remember what they've said and you never know when something is going to set them off. It's a lot like living with an overgrown 3 year old.
The wasband taught me that being kind and unjealous in a relationship is an invitation to a man to leave. 80s is teaching me that I do not want to put up with anyone who drinks or does any kind of drug that impairs them. Which is a little hypocritical of me since I smoke and drink coffee. I don't want to give up my coffee but this makes me more determined to get rid of the smoking.
Anyway- I can't get rid of my mom- and I don't see any way of getting her to stop drinking- but I don't have to have anyone else in my life that doesn't stop at a drink or two.
I really don't want to be alone but I'm tired of people who want to dump more stress into a life that I am desperately trying to de-stress. I really intensely dislike conflict and I get more than enough with things like the bus driver I have to deal with this morning and Emily's oppositional problems.
Just as an aside, I really want to order my books! This is possibly a side effect of the aforementioned stress. I was watching a peacock edition of Pride and Prejudice but it will have already sold... plus I'm really thinking I would prefer the leather. I'm also wanting to run down a facsimile edition of the William Morris Chaucer. I've seen some scans of pages and it's absolutely beautiful! I wish I had discovered the Easton reproduction before it was sold out- maybe I can find one on Ebay from someone who doesn't know what they've got and are only trying to get out of it what they paid for it. (Even at that it won't be cheap.)
I also need to talk to my car insurance people about home insurance and find out if Mom has insurance on this house and I need to insure the contents or if I need to insure it all. I've spent quite a lot of time and money getting the house into a fairly good shape and, if we had been in the path of the tornado, I doubt that what is on it now would be enough to rebuild it as it is. Not to mention that if I have to rebuild ever, I want to make some upgrades. A fireplace to start and a utility room that I can walk into without tripping over something that I need to keep.
I notice that, even without internet, I'm still journaling at lot. I'm going to have bunches to post if we ever get it back!